You want them to be able to put their hands around you waist when you cant even fit your hand around your wrist.
You want to go days without eating when you can hardly do 24 hours.
You want hipbones and you can barely see your ribs.
You want a thigh gap but you cant see past your stomach.
You want to be thin and dainty.
But you have no patience.
Things take time.
But youre so impatient that you think after a week that nothing is going to change.
So you binge.
Then you start up again.
And you stop and binge.
You have a recurring habit when you dont see results fast enough and you need to stop.
Stick to your plan for a day
Stick to your plan every day until those days become a week.
And then two weeks.
Then a month.
Then you start getting the results you want.
First, you could fit your thumb and middle finger around your wrist, three months in and now its your thumb and your pinky. With space in between.
First, twenty four whole hours of starving was torture,
Three months in and the pains are your drug.
First, you had a stomach you felt embarrassed in.
Three months in and all ribs are visible and your hipbones stand out through your jeans.
First, you wore holes in your jeans with the rubbing of your thighs, the dark marks on your skin from the rashes when you wore skirts were a constant reminder of your struggle.
Three months in and your legs are elegant, they no longer rub together and you feel free.
